Authority

Assisting at the market in Beverly Hills. Good to be behind the table again. Selling for a berry farm out of San Luis Obispo.

I am there to learn their system. I know what I like to do. Keep a sense of order and aesthetic. Create an open space. Many customers remark to the domo. “You’ve got help today.” I hear the stories about the lines. How he deals with the customers. In retrospect much of the customer actions come from the fact that they have to wait and he is understaffed.

I follow his lead. And take initiative. I don’t like sitting around when there can be things done. The trays begin to pile up. When there is free time, I stack them and put them in order. When there is free time I begin to go through the cash to set the bills in order so they can be easy to read. It’s a habit I’ve picked up.

The demo asks me if I am counting the bank. It is accusatory and spoken from a different frequency.

I explain to him that I’ve worked markets in the past. I just like to keep the bills in order.

I am lectured. If he sees me doing that. Then if there is bank missing, his first thought will go to me. If the owner recognizes this, the dome will be blamed.

I reply, “What if I know that I did not take anything!”

I say what I say because I know why I am doing what am doing and what I am doing it for.

He lectures me about doing what he says. That stacking the boxes was not cool. Etc.

Initiative stops. I sense that what this is all about is “who has got the biggest dick” The immediate response is that I will only do enough to get as that is the essence of what he asks for. His position is maintained.  There is nothing there to threaten it. Women condone this. I listen to his stories from this perspective. The complaints. How he deals with others. How he creates/relates to other men.

Late a mini-celebrity comes by. He knows him. Has his picture taken with him. The man’s children are eating the berries straight from the boxes. The mother is not stopping him. The dome does nothing even while it is against the rule he’s been hammering the whole day.

“Don’t let the customer’s sample”

He mentions later he wasn’t going to stop the kids because they belonged to the mini-celebrity.

I would not want this person in a foxhole beside me.

 

 

Good Healing Explained.

We are hungry to complete the cognitive narratives we’ve begun in order to verify, support and validate our experiences.

Choose environments where there is a frequency of fullness and contrasts.

Good healing can be explained and easily understood by children.

Ours is not to reason why. Ours is but to do and fly.

Life right now is reflecting the past. Not where I am right now.

The events of your life are greater than the sum of your parts.

Healing Manifesto

1. We live in non-static Universe.

2. We continue to heal whether we are living or dying.

3. We continue to expand whether we are living or dying.

4. Jesus did not do technique. He just touched.

5. When our bodies come together the healing that happens is relevant to :

A) The sumtotal of your experience as mediated by your body and spirit up to that moment

B) The combined sumtotal of our combined experience mediated by our bodies and spirit

6. The energy that moves through my hands is love.

7. The relationship is water as it moves from upstream to downstream

8. We work in silence. Words belie doubt, confusion and competition.

9. Our bodies know how to respond and align in silence

 

The Hanged Man

 

Had a dream upon arrival to Germany. It ended with me holding myself upside down in a pool off water close to the side of the pool…to stay out of sight of a shooter from whom I previously taken a bullet in the thigh.

A friend referred me to “The Hanged Man” card of the tarot.

The Hanged Man is one of the most mysterious cards in the tarot deck. It is simple, but complex. It attracts, but also disturbs. It contradicts itself in countless ways. The Hanged Man is unsettling because it symbolizes the action of paradox in our lives. A paradox is something that appears contradictory, and yet is true. The Hanged Man presents to us certain truths, but they are hidden in their opposites.

The main lesson of the Hanged Man is that we “control” by letting go – we “win” by surrendering. The figure on Card 12 has made the ultimate surrender – to die on the cross of his own travails – yet he shines with the glory of divine understanding. He has sacrificed himself, but he emerges the victor. The Hanged Man also tells us that we can “move forward” by standing still. By suspending time, we can have all the time in the world.

In readings, the Hanged Man reminds us that the best approach to a problem is not always the most obvious. When we most want to force our will on someone, that is when we should release. When we most want to have our own way, that is when we should sacrifice. When we most want to act, that is when we should wait. The irony is that by making these contradictory moves, we find what we are looking for.

See also “The Fool’s Journey”

Undaunted, the Fool pushes on. He is determined to realize his vision, but he finds life is not so easily tamed. Sooner or later, he encounters his personal cross – an experience that seems too difficult to endure. This overwhelming challenge humbles him until he has no choice but to give up and let go.

At first, the Fool feels defeated and lost. He believes he has sacrificed everything, but from the depths he learns an amazing truth. He finds that when he relinquishes his struggle for control, everything begins to work as it should. By becoming open and vulnerable, the Fool discovers the miraculous support of his Inner Self. He learns to surrender to his experiences, rather than fighting them. He feels a surprising joy and begins to flow with life.

The Fool feels suspended in a timeless moment, free of urgency and pressure. In truth, his world has been turned upside-down. The Fool is the Hanged Man (12), apparently martyred, but actually serene and at peace.

Post From Germany

Is a seizure a DMT episode?

We Are Never Blocked. Only Knotted.

We are never blocked. Only knotted.

What is stable in a closed system is the sum of forces. The force not only has intensities. They have length,

Bucky Insights

 

“Spending is fallacy. Nothing is spent in Universe.”

“Reasonable laws made by reasonable men in reasonable times proscribe trying everything. For good reason: people get hurt trying stuff. If you’re bound to try stuff anyway, then either you are working for directly for City Hall, or you’re an outlaw, or both. One thing we need is better outlaws.” – Stewart Brand

‘Sheer information overload, unannounced shifts from the “local” mode to the “express” radiating instead of linear patterns, make him rather an experience than a list of enlightenments.

It’s not a canned lecture: that’s part of the appeal. It’s a remarkable mind thinking out loud, remarkable most evidently for its eager presence. Who else cares so much about the next thing he will tell you? It’s like that bright memory, father’s undivided attention, when you are seven and Universe is strutting its stuff. The two of you dropped sticks into the swift eddies below a bridge, and you stood on the lower rung of a black iron railing to watch the current catch them. Nothing failed, not his vigilance, not gravity, nor those eddies.

Did the last man you talked with care what his next sentence would be?  Does the president care. For that matter does the president think in sentences, taut between concentration and concentration? Does most discourse not shred into phrases, like a crumbling wall? But real sentences are tensile, extended discourse a Tensegrity. And fuller keeps it up three, four hours unbroken, spinning his weave, departing on great hexagonal circuits from the juncture to which he will suddenly return, six struts meanwhile laced tight.

And there’s the unfailing readiness to clarify, amplify, one mode of generosity. And always the elation of triumphant fit, as the great circle closes with six holes aligned for the final bolt. Those are the aphoristic moments:

– Principles do not begin and end.

– Nature always works in the most economical way

– Nature never fails, it is we who invent failure.

– We have a function in Universe

– You do not need to prove your right to survive

– Man is meant to be a success.

—- Hugh Kenner, Bucky: A Guided Tour of Buckmnster Fuller

More Coffeehouse Bullets

You have options, choices and possibility. Court them all. Love them all. Then choose.

You can’t make a wrong choice in Universe.

I’d rather you step into the flow with the accrued love and experience entitled by your name.

I am stubborn. Failure is an option. It’s one of many. I won’t use it or choose it.

Think multidimensionally.

What is proactive approach? What can be done now?  Don’t care about what others think?

In getting through this I will be vulnerable to those who know me. I will be a magician.

We are in the realm of magic. Tapping chest. Doing clearing.

Initiations. Seizures/Energy initiations. Removal of rosary. This is warrior initiation. Multidimensional. Training with Ana.

What I have done I have passed through.

Renee. Going to another state. the feeling of being met.

Joe, have you had divine experiences before?

Those who don’t have children take the warrior path. They work multidimensionally. Ease in transition between multidimensional worlds.

Yawning. Changing frequency.

There are people I know that I’ll get better around.

More Coffeehouse Bullets

Accountants are psychotherapists/shamans.

In arguing for your own limitations, you are subtracting yourself from yourself.

Change is ubiquitous and can only be seen retroactively.

Set out your healing process like a geodesic dome.

Charm them into neutral.

 

 

Resetting

You think that people you interact with will forget you. (You’re?) They’re going to remember you. See you. They’ll sense and remember your essence once they reset their focus on you.

The agency ultimately comes down to you.

 

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